Things I have been feeling tired about lately:

• ARP 
• Art 
• Training ( physically hahaha)

Things I have been looking forward too and feeling great about:

• Session with the kids (:
• Training for track and Javelin
• Being random and rampaging around school
• Making Leely and Nic10 laugh
• Coming home to talk to Dad, Mum and my sissssss.
• Using my instant buttons application on people heh.

Feeling greeeeaaaat > tiredness. :)

And Lum Stacy has actually been losing her touch of inner zen peace?!?!? 

Time to get back on track and keep laughing my life through life :)

HAPPY GURL IS THE FATTEST GURL OKAY IM WILL BE FAT AND HAPPY LIKE AN ABALONE KID YEAH HMPH>

Today I read several posts about people being appreciative and thanking all the

people who have been there in their lives, and I thought that it was beautiful. :)

Since it’s new year eve, and Stacy has new-found courage and motivation, so I

thought why not.

I have a friend whom I’ve known pratically my whole life and would say is somewhat like my twin brother. He’s grown so much though hahaha, more definite about his goals and principals, yet sometimes I still see him as how he was like 9 years ago, occasionally struggling with his insecurity, his emotions. I hate to see people misunderstanding him occasionally, seeing him for what he appear to be and not what he is. If they are willing to take the time to know, his sincerity and loyalty would win them over hands down.

This other friend of mine is like a boulder. Always stable, always there for me yet always willing to stay in the back. The most surprising thing is that we are so different yet somehow we get along hahaha; she’s like a rock yet I’m like the wind. And till today I’m still thinking on how the hell did we become friends hm. She’s so stubborn I swear, once set her mind down on something, forever unwilling to budge despite much begging on my side. And that’s the best thing I love about her. She’s a very talented person but always refusing to step out from the shadows, just contented with what she has, very admirable. For once on my birthday, since it always fall on a holiday, she actually made a card for me and mailed it over. I thought that effort and thought put in was really.. I was touched. I would also say the only person who I can confidently say would never leave me hanging or alone. Scariest part, she can read my mind faints.

Then come this friend whom I’ve known for quite some time. The way we met was pretty unusual though, but all the more memorable. :) This is someone who doesn’t give much of a damn to everything, in contrast to my need to care and think about things and I think this is what gels us well as friends. Her recklessness and take it as it comes attitude to life still pretty much shock me occasionally, and I would say this is the best thing about her. :) Spill out the poop on my mind, get a casual reply of “How many times have I told you not to think so much?” and forget about things as quick as a child can pick his nose.  Always forgiving and forgetting, easygoing about almost everything make me love her even more as a friend. Sometimes she scares me when health comes into the picture, I always nag at her and have no idea whether she listens but ultimately I know she will be okay. Still remember the time when I wrote to her, her response lovely. :)

Friend no 4, is what everyone would say is a mysterious person hahaha, and I still think it’s cute when people say she’s like that. She’s a someone you can talk bluntly too and it would still be perfectly fine. Occasionally look like she doesn’t think a lot and she would often say she doesn’t think at all, but I would say she does and rather deeply too. Sometimes she gets clueless about stuff and it’s like what the but she’s definitely a great kid, considerate about your feelings and all, someone who can train hardcore with hell yeaahhhh. :) I like her calmness and warmth she exude, because it allows me to better think things and thoughts through while I’m talking to her and she listens well. 

Now about this next friend who is probably most similar to me among the rest ha ha. Motherly person, always the nice one, always the one giving in. :) She’s the one we always joke about being wimpy HO HO but honestly wow when you see her in action, MAN LIKE HELL. She’s easily influenced, like how her sense of humor has significantly increased with my extreme presence HEHEHEH, but has a heart of gold. People like to just bloody unload their woes on her but have never considered that others might have their own share of troubles too. I think what I like best would be that both of us can just unload our woes on each other for listening and yet no burden. Perhaps cause it’s pretty similar and that we know someone understands, or perhaps because we know none of us will speak about it to anyone else I guess. Planning to see who she will marry in 7 years time HAHAHA. Thank you so much friend.

Another friend who sometimes makes me angry like hell, yet sometimes things are perfectly okay. Occasionally the views this friend has are pretty strong and objective, yet you can’t help but feel this person is a very naive person in a good way. I would say by far the one person I can’t really read. Very unpredictable sometimes yet sometimes you would feel you know all about this person. Definitely someone capable with a good heart, yet sometimes feel something different might be underlaying beneath the surface? Maybe I’m seeing too deeply into things again ha ha. But I do want to thank this person very much for the care :)

This kid is the most similar to me in the let’s be random and dance around way. :) Always wanting to have fun and do random stuff with me. Someone that surprised me pleasantly by how much this friend observes. Like how my habit of drinking with 2 straws got exposed. When it comes to talking about and expression of emotions bluntly, this kid wins hands down. And I love this best about this friend because no headaches about trying to figure out what a party is thinking when they are angry/ do they mean what they say, cause this kid definitely meant what is being said. In the past easily nervous, occasionally still see it once or twice but hell, when it comes down serious situations, this friend is calm and steady like no other. Another reason why I love this kid. Like the time my mum got sent A&E and it scared the shit out of me, if not for this kid ha ha seriously.. Thank you so much.

This friend I have never spoke to much in the past and have only recently done so because of hostel. This is seriously a friend like no other. If possible I would like to put up a sign advertising this kid as a BFF. Talented individual but seemingly easily contented with life, so I actually found it a pity when this kid didn’t want to be a doctor, definitely would have made a great one. Talking to this friend cheers me up like whooo a rainbow cat, it’s like we can talk about anything under the sun and it’s damn interesting cause both of our answers are frank like hell ha ha and I like that very much. :) It’s weird how not talking for a period of time made me feel quite uncomfortable and once we start talking again, I feel like doing a healthy dose of the TROLOLOL dance my sister demonstrated HAHAHAHA THUMBS UP. Sometimes I feel conflicted like I shouldn’t be talking to this kid cause it would be unfair. But AHA I have decided that I should just do what I like doing because I care for this kid but up till now is really bad at expressing it oh well -.-Perhaps cause of the short period we have actually talked. Thank you too.

Ah I feel greeeeeaaaaaaaaat. :)

Happy new year ponies.

I always wonder why do I like doing sports though sometimes it exhausts me. 

Then today I realised. 

Sports never disappoint me. It’s always within my control on how much I want to

train my body and tire myself. And its focus eliminates unnecessary negative

thoughts. Every time I pull away from it, it pulls me right back in and is always

there for me within reach.

Unlike people.

The day I know I meet someone special in my life, it would be when I pull away, 

they pull me right back in and stubbornly never let go or give up.

Hm wonder when would I ever meet a BFF Mabelley Number 2 ha ha:)

“I sometimes think that people’s hearts are like deep wells. Nobody knows what’s at the bottom. All you can do is imagine by what comes floating to the surface every once in a while.”